Thursday, April 26, 2012
Current State: Busy
So in February I started this blog and I thought "blogging, oh that will be fun. I am a full time student with lots of time on my hands so why not find something productive to fill the hours with"? Shortly after that I got a job and have been working 25-30 hours a week and taking 17 credits. So for the past seven weeks I have been running around like crazy trying to figure out how to balance work and school, all the while thinking I wish I could get some more writing for the blog done. Now I think I have found that balance so I will resume writing. Unfortunately because of this new crazy schedule I will not be able to write as much as I hoped until school is finished. That's all, I just wanted to inform the three people who read this blog why I've only had one real post in two plus months. I am working on three post right now and at least one of them should be up by the end of the month.
Monday, March 5, 2012
Passions
A few weeks ago I was talking with a friend about her drama class she's in and she was telling me about her teacher, Patrick Daughtry. She said how much she loved his enthusiasm and passion for teaching. It made me think back to when I was is Patrick's Intro to Film and Video class last year. His teaching was what got me seriously interested in film. Patrick has an amazing ability to communicate and teach others. His passion for film and teaching helps to inspire me to be passionate about the things I love. This spawned a question in me, what am I passionate about?
Two weeks ago when I started writing this post, my focus was on how sick and tired I was of seeing Christians who were not as passionate about God as I thought I was. I saw myself as the good guy who had it all together and was following God's commands. I would compare myself to other Christians who I thought were the hypocrites and said to myself "well I am doing better than they are". I was focused on other peoples problems and neglecting to look at my own.
How absurdly arrogant of me, thank goodness I did not post what I had written before, and discredit everything I said this blog is about.
Since then I have had a change of heart and I now see that I am not as devoted to God nor do I spend as much time with him as I should. This realization has come as part of a process in the last few months as God has been working on my heart, enabling me to see things that I have been blind to in the past. I thought that I had my life all together and God was my first priority in life. However, after close examination I have come to realize that I have been deceiving myself and others. In reality God was not number one. Now I am on a mission to improve not through my own power but through Gods power.
I am continuing to learn that where I am today in my walk with God has been part of a larger journey in learning to follow Him. As I have grown God has shown me where I need to improve in my life and convicted me when I do wrong. I still make mistakes, it's part of life, but God's mercy and grace make up for what I lack.
Sometimes it seems as if I am constantly consumed by things that take my focus off God. I struggle to weed out the distractions in my life in an effort to put God first. My mission in life should be to Love and serve God, not discussing Scorsese films. My love for film sometimes overshadows my love for God. I find it easy to talk all day about my favorite films or bands with people, but I am not as comfortable with sharing about God, and how he has transformed my life.
Last week I thought this post was all done and I felt great about what I had learned and wrote. Yet, I did not post it because I felt that there was one more thing missing. Yesterday night I found the missing piece.
A quote by C.S. Lewis "Our passions are not to strong, they are too weak. For we are too easily pleasured." Lewis said what I have been struggling with and trying to articulate for three week in 16 words. The frivolity of my earthy passions disgust me, but Lewis' words give me hope and encouragement to live with passionate love for God, seeing all else as nothing compared to Him. All that's left now is to continue "Walking slowly, but never backwards."
Two weeks ago when I started writing this post, my focus was on how sick and tired I was of seeing Christians who were not as passionate about God as I thought I was. I saw myself as the good guy who had it all together and was following God's commands. I would compare myself to other Christians who I thought were the hypocrites and said to myself "well I am doing better than they are". I was focused on other peoples problems and neglecting to look at my own.
How absurdly arrogant of me, thank goodness I did not post what I had written before, and discredit everything I said this blog is about.
Since then I have had a change of heart and I now see that I am not as devoted to God nor do I spend as much time with him as I should. This realization has come as part of a process in the last few months as God has been working on my heart, enabling me to see things that I have been blind to in the past. I thought that I had my life all together and God was my first priority in life. However, after close examination I have come to realize that I have been deceiving myself and others. In reality God was not number one. Now I am on a mission to improve not through my own power but through Gods power.
I am continuing to learn that where I am today in my walk with God has been part of a larger journey in learning to follow Him. As I have grown God has shown me where I need to improve in my life and convicted me when I do wrong. I still make mistakes, it's part of life, but God's mercy and grace make up for what I lack.
Sometimes it seems as if I am constantly consumed by things that take my focus off God. I struggle to weed out the distractions in my life in an effort to put God first. My mission in life should be to Love and serve God, not discussing Scorsese films. My love for film sometimes overshadows my love for God. I find it easy to talk all day about my favorite films or bands with people, but I am not as comfortable with sharing about God, and how he has transformed my life.
Last week I thought this post was all done and I felt great about what I had learned and wrote. Yet, I did not post it because I felt that there was one more thing missing. Yesterday night I found the missing piece.
A quote by C.S. Lewis "Our passions are not to strong, they are too weak. For we are too easily pleasured." Lewis said what I have been struggling with and trying to articulate for three week in 16 words. The frivolity of my earthy passions disgust me, but Lewis' words give me hope and encouragement to live with passionate love for God, seeing all else as nothing compared to Him. All that's left now is to continue "Walking slowly, but never backwards."
Thursday, February 9, 2012
So... What's this all about?
This blog is about thoughts, ideas, and passions I would like to share with other people. I am not much of a writer but I hope to improve my ability to coherently express my self through the medium of the written word. I intend to write about the things that inspire me such as: thoughts, ideas, books, films, music, theology, sports and numerous other topics. I want to write about subjects that engage minds to think, and make people examine and reflect on how they see the world.
The title of blogs seems to be rather important, so I took some time creating the title. Consequently it is a little long and needs some explanation. Notes on Life: "walking slowly but never backwards." comes from an Abraham Lincoln quote originally, "I walk slowly, but I never walk backward." This quote does a superb job of summing up how I want to live. Striving every day to improve my LOVE for God and glorify his name by becomeing more like his Son, Jesus Christ. Don't worry I am not going to "be all religious," get preachy, stand on a "soap box," or try to shove my ideas down reader’s throats. I plan on asking questions and sharing ideas and interests with others. Hopefully along the way some people will read what I write, enjoy it, and learn something new or comment and teach me something. If not that’s fine, I will continue writing and "walking slowly but never backwards."
To the future, What to look for? In the upcoming weeks I plan on writing several post about: a movie, a music album, my history professor, and what God has been teaching me.
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